I’m just going to dive straight into this one – no pre amble required! Its all about money manifestation.
I've never had what you would consider to be a healthy relationship with money! I’ve had money and I’ve spent money – a lot of it on a lot of silly things as it happens. Or at least that is what I have been telling myself recently. Beating myself up over my current lack versus what I shoulda coulda woulda had, if I’d just listened to my mum and dad.
They instilled into me some of the following values. Things like “Never a borrower nor a lender be”. “Work hard and make sure you save.” “Always have something put aside for a rainy day” etc.
Thing is, I pretty much ignored all of that advise.
I’ve always spent every penny I’ve had and then some! Not always on myself I might add. I’m very generous and I just love treating people. I get great joy from giving. Whether that’s picking out special presents, picking up the tab where I’m able to, paying for holidays for me and my partner. These things for me bring immense heartfelt joy and satisfaction.
But am I actually any good at managing money and do I have a healthy relationship with it? Is it in fact my friend? Do I feel like I deserve to have it, given that I do spend it so flippantly?
Well, I think the answer to that, at least for the last year, has been no and hence my relationship towards money has soured and I’ve definitely been in a scarcity rather than an abudance mindset. And do you know what? Yup, currently I’m #flatbroke! (made sure everyone got good Christmas presents though again this year!)
So I am super pumped and eager to dive into the money manifestation training and to fix my relationship once and for all with money.
I feel a huge sense of shame – there I said it – about some of the situations that I have allowed to happen between me and my money. I lost a house and a business and was scammed out of my savings not so long back and again, whilst there were other external factors and people at play in all of those situations, I do blame myself immensely for letting them happen and I feel embarrassed.
So this lesson is going to be a critical one for me. I’m going to have to really LET GO. Get those money blocks out of the way. Today's coach, the gorgeous and inspiring Tenar Larson Roberts puts if very eloquently and simply.
What I have to do is to let these feelings go and for each one, as I do so, I have to tell myself very clearly, “I forgive you, I’m sorry, I love you.”
So that’s what I’ll be spending my Sunday doing because 2017 is about Cat the money making machine!